I respect your decision and hope you could recover from all the pain.

Just to let you know that, this idiot here
==>Edmund Sun Jin Jie <==
will wait for you to recover from the pain, to be ready for another relationship, to once again fall in love with me, no matter how long it takes.

80 years.

In the mean time, I will be your best friend with love between us.
Hope that I will be the first one you call when you encounter a problem, first one you call when you are lonely, first one to call when you need that somebody.

I'll be there for you.
This five words I'll promise you.

你是我最深爱的女人 你有最美丽的嘴唇
你拥有最动人的眼神 你带给我幸福和快乐
我的爱绝对是永恒
做什么都值得 爱上了一个人

- 你是我最深爱的女人 -

EDMUND SUN, GO FUCK YOURSELF NOW. WHY DO YOU HAVE TO FUCKING DO THIS TO HER AGAIN AND AGAIN? YOU DON'T DESERVE TO EVEN FUCKING LIVE IN THE FUCKING WORLD. YOU ARE A FUCKER, BIG TIME.


Yeah. I agree with that. I don't deserve living in this world.

Every night, I have to do this.


原来怪我没有
没有爱情的天分
你才要走
我想要学会自我催眠
痛觉会少一些

- 自我催眠 -

Sorry for hurting you again and again.


真心仍在 与你永不分开
这一生 只愿和你相爱
与你同在 只为你等待
FEEL SO SORRY
BABY I’M SO SORRY
I NEVER MEANT
I NEVER MEANT TO HURT YOU

- 无心伤害 -

Sometimes physical pain can take away some of the emotional pain. Even though it is temporary.


就让我一个人去痛到 受不了伤到快疯掉
死不了就还好

- 寂寞寂寞就好 -

人类如果没有心脏那就好了

受伤不会流血 悲伤也不会流泪

- 不屑 -

我感动了天感动了地，却怎么也感动不了你

爱呢 你的爱呢
你呢我的你呢
从前的那些快乐
变了没了
我好怀念你刚开始爱上我的那天

- 爱呢 -

Yesterday went to sing my heart out with Edwin, hoping that I would feel better but it didn't.

谁还记得是谁先说
永远的爱我
以前的一句话是我们
以后的伤口

- 记得 -

I would not deny the fact the I am in pain. When will all this stop? Everyday, I am like losing some part of myself, sooner or later I know, I will lose everything. It's out of my control. I tried so hard but every try just hurt me more. Now I am like a walking zombie, lifeless. Someone Help Me. Please.

自从那天分手后 停不住泪滴
想念一个人 能忘记自己
让我爱你 什么都愿意
如果没有你 我的世界只剩回忆
每天只面对孤寂
已来不及 再说我爱你
如果能在遇见你 把你抱紧
从此步分离 决不放弃 我要告诉你
Baby I am sorry.

- Baby 对不起 -

I am really trying to let go but i just can't seem to be able to achieve it. Sometimes I really felt that I don't want to be here anymore.

那些爱过的感觉都太深刻
我都还记得
我错了 泪干了
放手了 后悔了
只是回忆的音乐盒还旋转着
要怎么停呢

- 说好的幸福呢 -

Now, she has made the points very clearly to me. I know what she wants and I will try my best to give her what she wants. I've never stop doing that, giving her what she wants.

把疼爱都给你 把疼痛都给我
最痛是当时微笑送你走
把疼爱都给你 把疼痛都给我
放开手是我最后的温柔
如果你能飞得 快乐自由
这疼痛 并不算 什么

- 疼爱 -

I really need to get my life back but the point is, I don't know how.

如果你不再出现
我的世界 还有什么可贵
想念变成怀念
心动变成心碎
我不知道如何度过今夜

- 天灰 -

December is going to be so empty now with all the planned leave hanging around. The surprise was on me afterall. 

Love is a friendship that has caught fire. It is quiet understanding, mutual confidence, sharing and forgiving. It is loyalty through good times and bad. It settles for less than perfection and makes allowance for weakness. Love is content with the present, it hopes for the future and it doesn't brood over the past. It's the day in, day out chronicles of irritations, problems, compromises, small disappointments, big victories and common goals. If you have love in your life, it can make up for a great many things you lack. If you don't have it, no matter what else there is, it is not enough. 

No Matter How Hard Life Pushes Me.
I Will Never Back Down.