I don't know what to do now. I am stuck. I know that if I were to work, I will have minimum time with her. But if I don't work, I am seriously low on cash and plus my parents will start to nag at me all over again.

Can someone tell me what should I do?



如果超人会飞 那就让我在空中停一停歇
再次俯瞰这个世界 会让我觉得好一些


- 超人不会飞 -

I am sorry.

There are some times when I want to announce to the whole world that this is the person I love the most.

And this is the time.

I LOVE YOU BABY.

高调爱 就要这么对味
给你爱 幸福得很明显
你是我第一顺位
我要让全世界都看见
高调爱 就像每个音阶
给你爱 甜蜜得好特别
你让我骄傲一点
我让你幸福直到永远

- 高调爱 -

Hate going outfield. Hope this week faster pass.

Christmas is coming soon, followed by the new year. Next year will be a better year for us. We will get better as we grow older.

As for my dear gay buddy, I really do hope that he can get out of his shadow soon. Felt quite helpless when he was down. Didn't really know how to console him. Hope everything will go well for him next year too.

A new year, A new beginning.

Today was hectic. Hope tomorrow will be better. Life is so much better now after I moved on.

Hope Edwin is getting better too.

I am starting to skip for 100 reps each day to keep fit!!

I'm in love.

Last thursday, I went to have supper at siglap followed by a walk at east coast park with this girl.
She was very special, very different from other girls.
Didn't really know what happen at that moment. I guess it came naturally.
From the FIRST SIGHT, I fell in love with her straight away.


Well, I am with this girl right now and I hope I can really treat her well and love her with everything I can.
Not to repeat my past mistakes again.
Hope everyone can give me their fullest support and blessings.


I've move on. I can't live in my past forever. I need to break through it.
But that break up will always serve as a wake up call, a punishment to me.


爱你 不是因为你的美而已
我越来越爱你
每个眼神触动我的心
未来这些日子
要好好珍惜
我只想用我这一辈子去爱你
从今以后 你会是所有
幸福的理由

- Forever Love -

Never under estimate anyone and over rate yourself.

人 最难打败的 自己

- 箇中強手 -

I have never ever seen someone like this. He doesn't even know what love is. He probably don't deserves any love at all.

你对我多好
多温柔 多认真
不构成爱我的资格
除非你只看着我
想着我 只有我
爱本来就该独一无二

- 爱我的资格 -

This post is dedicated to my buddy, brother, gay partner. Thanks for being there for me when I needed it. Thanks a million.

朋友 不曾孤单过
一声朋友 你会懂
还有伤 还有痛
还要走 还有我

- 朋友 -

Now, I believe he needs some advice and assistance in his life to get over this

做不成的爱人 变成最好朋友

- 不做你的朋友 -

I am thinking of her the whole day. Wonder is she thinking of me too.

I respect your decision and hope you could recover from all the pain.

Just to let you know that, this idiot here
==>Edmund Sun Jin Jie <==
will wait for you to recover from the pain, to be ready for another relationship, to once again fall in love with me, no matter how long it takes.

80 years.

In the mean time, I will be your best friend with love between us.
Hope that I will be the first one you call when you encounter a problem, first one you call when you are lonely, first one to call when you need that somebody.

I'll be there for you.
This five words I'll promise you.

你是我最深爱的女人 你有最美丽的嘴唇
你拥有最动人的眼神 你带给我幸福和快乐
我的爱绝对是永恒
做什么都值得 爱上了一个人

- 你是我最深爱的女人 -

EDMUND SUN, GO FUCK YOURSELF NOW. WHY DO YOU HAVE TO FUCKING DO THIS TO HER AGAIN AND AGAIN? YOU DON'T DESERVE TO EVEN FUCKING LIVE IN THE FUCKING WORLD. YOU ARE A FUCKER, BIG TIME.


Yeah. I agree with that. I don't deserve living in this world.

Every night, I have to do this.


原来怪我没有
没有爱情的天分
你才要走
我想要学会自我催眠
痛觉会少一些

- 自我催眠 -

Sorry for hurting you again and again.


真心仍在 与你永不分开
这一生 只愿和你相爱
与你同在 只为你等待
FEEL SO SORRY
BABY I’M SO SORRY
I NEVER MEANT
I NEVER MEANT TO HURT YOU

- 无心伤害 -

Sometimes physical pain can take away some of the emotional pain. Even though it is temporary.


就让我一个人去痛到 受不了伤到快疯掉
死不了就还好

- 寂寞寂寞就好 -

人类如果没有心脏那就好了

受伤不会流血 悲伤也不会流泪

- 不屑 -

我感动了天感动了地，却怎么也感动不了你

爱呢 你的爱呢
你呢我的你呢
从前的那些快乐
变了没了
我好怀念你刚开始爱上我的那天

- 爱呢 -

Yesterday went to sing my heart out with Edwin, hoping that I would feel better but it didn't.

谁还记得是谁先说
永远的爱我
以前的一句话是我们
以后的伤口

- 记得 -

I would not deny the fact the I am in pain. When will all this stop? Everyday, I am like losing some part of myself, sooner or later I know, I will lose everything. It's out of my control. I tried so hard but every try just hurt me more. Now I am like a walking zombie, lifeless. Someone Help Me. Please.

自从那天分手后 停不住泪滴
想念一个人 能忘记自己
让我爱你 什么都愿意
如果没有你 我的世界只剩回忆
每天只面对孤寂
已来不及 再说我爱你
如果能在遇见你 把你抱紧
从此步分离 决不放弃 我要告诉你
Baby I am sorry.

- Baby 对不起 -

I am really trying to let go but i just can't seem to be able to achieve it. Sometimes I really felt that I don't want to be here anymore.

那些爱过的感觉都太深刻
我都还记得
我错了 泪干了
放手了 后悔了
只是回忆的音乐盒还旋转着
要怎么停呢

- 说好的幸福呢 -

Now, she has made the points very clearly to me. I know what she wants and I will try my best to give her what she wants. I've never stop doing that, giving her what she wants.

把疼爱都给你 把疼痛都给我
最痛是当时微笑送你走
把疼爱都给你 把疼痛都给我
放开手是我最后的温柔
如果你能飞得 快乐自由
这疼痛 并不算 什么

- 疼爱 -

I really need to get my life back but the point is, I don't know how.

如果你不再出现
我的世界 还有什么可贵
想念变成怀念
心动变成心碎
我不知道如何度过今夜

- 天灰 -

December is going to be so empty now with all the planned leave hanging around. The surprise was on me afterall. 

Love is a friendship that has caught fire. It is quiet understanding, mutual confidence, sharing and forgiving. It is loyalty through good times and bad. It settles for less than perfection and makes allowance for weakness. Love is content with the present, it hopes for the future and it doesn't brood over the past. It's the day in, day out chronicles of irritations, problems, compromises, small disappointments, big victories and common goals. If you have love in your life, it can make up for a great many things you lack. If you don't have it, no matter what else there is, it is not enough. 

No Matter How Hard Life Pushes Me.
I Will Never Back Down.